
What does it mean to be good? How can a person lead a moral life? Is it a matter of determined application of free will? Is your will determined for you? Within this gap, questions begin to be asked. Religion, and the avenue toward belief, is a black box. In the absence of evidence-from scripture, correspondence, or official doctrine-there is at least an absolute ambiguity. Ambiguity is imbued into every type of belief: the upper limit of what is known is the beginning boundary of faith. The spiritual answers to these questions differ from the historical ones. I was more interested in, say, the practical reality of guardian angels, what the Roman soldier who pierced Jesus’s side on the cross did when he returned home that day, the thorniness of free will given by an omniscient god. Few theological lessons stuck with me through eight years of Catholic school, at least not the ones my teachers would have liked.
